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I just wanted to thank you all for your kind words of encouragement… I truly appreciate it. It’s been an interesting couple of days. But honestly, it’s okay, I’m okay, and it’s all going to be oooooookay.

I was pretty shocked, so much so that I didn’t really have the energy to cry or get upset. I have felt tears well up in my eyes many times but none actually fell until I got this email from my mom on Wednesday morning:

God doesn’t give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED- To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be. Dear God: The woman reading this is beautiful, classy and strong, and I love her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most, and let her know when she walks with you, she will always be safe.

Then the email went on in true forward fashion and told me to pass the email on to 9 of my ‘best girls.’ I hate email forwards but for some reason it seemed really appropriate. Instead of clogging people’s inboxes I decided to share it with all of you. Cheesy, I know… but sometimes we need to know that someone is thinking of us and only wants the best for us. Hope you don’t hate me for it.

I spent most of yesterday getting my life in order. I filed with the Unemployment office, had my student loans brought down to the minimum payment (b/c I was being responsible and paying double before,) I cancelled some subscriptions that I will no longer need. I broke my apartment lease, and will be moving things home to my parents house outside Nashville. I am very thankful that they are able to offer me a place to stay, that’s my saving grace at the moment. The most unfortunate part about all this is that I will have to leave E here in Knoxville. I know that the distance won’t negatively effect our relationship- I truly know that we are rock-solid and committed to each other, but we’ve never spent alot of time apart. I’m not worried, I’m just sad that I won’t get to see him every day.
This morning I had coffee with my pastor, who is a dear dear friend of mine and talking with her made me feel alot of peace. I know it’s going to be okay. I have lots of friends and family who love me and who are looking out for me. Keeping their eyes and ears open for possible job opportunities. And luckily I have a good amount of free time to work on my resume and portfolio. I know there is a plan bigger than me and better than I ever could have hoped for myself. I’m trusting in that and looking forward to see what is to come.

Posting (especially wedding-related) might be sporadic over the next few weeks, so I appreciate your understanding. I have felt so much love from the blogging community- I appreciate all of you, my virtual friends. I love you all and wish only the best things for you during this holiday season!!

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Jessica is the creator of The Budget Savvy Bride; she launched the site in May of 2008, shortly after becoming engaged. Jessica has been recognized as a budget wedding expert by various media outlets and continues to share realistic inspiration and actionable tips to help brides save money on their weddings. Google

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  • http://repeatbride.wordpress.com Marisa

    Somehow I completely missed the fact that you were in Knoxville! (… so I had to delurk and comment).

    Sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

  • budgetsavvybride

    @Jessica- I guess he will move whenever he is able to find a job. Once I get something secured for myself I will probably work on looking for something for him as well. Sooner rather than later, hopefully!

  • http://un-bride.blogspot.com un-bride

    what a beautiful letter — thanks for sharing that. you are so blessed to have such loving support from your family. sending you lots of virtual hugs & good wishes.

  • Jessica

    Glad that you are staying positive! I know it will suck being away from him, but you were wanting to move back anyway. :) When will he be able to move?

  • Amanda

    I have been reading your blog for a couple months now and am so sorry to hear about your job. I talked to the art director at my office and while we are not currently hiring, she did send me some info for you on another possibility here in Nashville. I am happy to forward you the info, just shoot me an e-mail!

  • kay*

    stay positive. as per my previous comment in the post below, it will get better and i’m sure you’ll be back with some great updates before long. try and see the positives.

    and yes, the blog community is something isn’t it? the supportive comments i got last week almost moved me to tears – certainly much closer than when i actually got laid off!

  • zekiut1

    hello :) i don’t know you, but i’ve been reading your blog for awhile, and i just want to say that you’re such a beautiful person, staying strong through whatever you’re going through. there must be truly better things ahead for you!

  • nahgeam

    I am infinitely impressed with the level of positivity you are able to radiate in spite of such unfortunate circumstances! And you’ve been so proactive in taking care of everything you need to! That should be evidence enough that you’re going to be just fine. :) Seriously, good luck with the job search! Great opportunities can often rise from the crappiest situations, and I hope that’s the case for you.

  • http://blog.aliceflorist.com Annie

    stay cool girl!! life is all round cycle. we all have our ups and downs. Things are going to be good ahead. Remember you’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and happier than you think.

    Cheer up!

  • http://scnearlywed.blogspot.com/ SC Nearly Wed

    Keep your chin up – you’ll get through this rough patch. Best of luck with the job search!

  • http://broomjumpingbride.blogspot.com Dana

    What is your field? I would like to do a post on you on my blog so that I may assist in generating some interest and maybe some job opportunities.

  • martydrury

    Hi,

    Amazing blog. Sounds like there’s a lot going on in your life right now and I wish you all the best. Hope everything goes well. I’d love to add your blog to my blog roll if that’s ok with you and I’d also love to feature your blog on my blog as a “Featured Blog”. Let me know if that would be ok.

    Once again, my very best wishes to you. Hope everything works out. Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays

    Yours

    Marty Drury
    UK based journalist and writer and creator of:
    http://www.joinmartin.wordpress.com.
    One Man. One Year. One Challenge.